ego death [part1]
how should you resist once you hear your true inner voice. i never identified the slightest bit with society. then i fought my ego. for years. not actually knowing what i was fighting. leading to it’s death at a very critical point of my life. it felt like everything i did, everything i said, everything i thought and felt up to this just were part in leading me to this one experience. i faced my whole life presented in a self expanding never-ending matrix to all directions with the sanctums …. being me. my body, thoughts, chakra, words, emotions, vision, everything expanded from me. sounds legit - everyone is the center of universe. wherever you are you are the center. to all directions there is an infinity of room from your point (read hawking or stuff). well suddenly you begin to realize that you are this unbelievable thing you see - and feel. you ARE the universe. and from that point on you lose your mind. unprepared - it will kill your mind. making you wish you had never visited that place. never seen truth. but if you come back from there you know you have seen the truth. you just know. and you move on. making changes in life. there will be many changes. trust me.
i hope my english was much much better. would’ve so much to say i can only express in my first language. my vocabulary is really bad. :/